"Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
I've been doing a lot of praying this school year that God would open the doors to the schools that our daughter could attend for high school and close the doors to schools that would not be a good fit for her. God has been faithful to us and now we are in a final waiting period before we make our decision. In some ways, my own life hangs in the balance between the ability to choose my career path for the next few years or doing something "to make ends meet". It's a blessing to be in this position and with our frugal choices over the years, I have been blessed to be at home part-time with my girls for as long as I have. I have earned money in some way the entire time (at least according to my Social Security report and my Income tax forms) but the pressure has never been on me to return to the work force in a substantial way.
I always wondered if I'd be able to make it as a stay-at-home mom. It wasn't my original intention and I didn't think I could do it but God has a way of sending you down paths you don't expect (see yesterday's blog). If I hadn't been home with my girls, my husband wouldn't have been able to start the non-profit that he continues to run to this day and it's obvious to me that God had planned that for him (and us) all along. It's been a huge sacrifice but I know that it's his calling to work with these students.
So sometimes I struggle with the fact that maybe I was never meant to do something "great" but that God had always planned for me to be in the background. That bruises my ego a bit. Or maybe I am doing something "great" and I just don't think highly enough of it.
At least I know that in the next three weeks, my life is going to be different when we decide on my daughter's high school.
Have a warm Best Life day!
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